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Saturday, October 20, 2012

Self Esteem Rebuilding Fucking Day One


I'm afraid....

I'm bordering dysthymia already...Why is it muy muy muy deficil to forget the thought that someone left me. It's not even about that someone. I swear I don't care about him anymore. But still, I feel so unworthy..of anything...anyone...So, I now understand what those difficult patients really feel inside. Tss.

Been fighting this sullen feeling for months...been on counseling...been on Vs, which didn't even help a bit...been eating chocolates everyday....but "it" keeps on coming back. Whenever I could feel a stretch of daylight, "it" instantly drags me down...it's so heavy I am really having a hard time pulling myself up.

I wish I could cure myself. I'm ashamed that I need help. I'm ashamed that I'm depressed...when I'm supposed to be the one helping people get well. But I can't....I can't..I need help too.



And I hate it ='(

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