Chasing Dreams: Can You Handcraft Miracles?

..Almost two years ago..but still my favorite composition..

Can you handcraft miracles?or wait for it to arrive?

do you grab it in mid-air?

or does it fall right into place?

If I pray harder, would a no still be a No?

And if I pray less, would a yes be less of a Yes? 

Are miracles really heaven sent? 

Or mere products of hard work and luck?

If you wish with all your heart,

kneel down and be humbled,

will every beat of your heart resound to heaven?

or will it make no difference?

Shall I finally hear an approval?

Shall His desire be of one with mine?

Shall He listen to me beg?

or shall it be another "not yet my dear, not now."

What difference does "not yet" make from a "no"?

If both stems from "not", thus hurt like one?

does "not yet" mean "someday it will"

or only will the waiting would only keep the hurt longer?

If i cross my fingers, catch a falling star,

break a wishing bone, light 999 candles,

rearrange the furniture, turn the plate three times,

will heaven forbid? will heaven hear me?

If I lay down all day and night, count sheep on my head

stop wishing, stop hoping, stop believing --

will the pain of waiting and wishing stop?

or will the pain of  "wanting-to-stop-yet-you-cant" hurt even more?

...Can you handcraft miracles?

...or wait for it to arrive?

...do you grab it in mid-air?

...or does it fall right into place?

...Are miracles really heaven sent? 

...Or mere products of hard work and luck?



or shall I stop wishing?