I've always been a ball of chaos. I like beating the red light, deadlines, piling up one task before finishing another, doing three things all at the same time and just as if all the tension's not enough --- there I go sashaying my way to another pile.
The problem is unconsciously or sub-consciously, I could suddenly get all fed up and gravitate towards being in a stupor. Which is cool, when you're 18 and could flunk one test (and ace another one to make up for it). But so un-cool and irresponsible, when you're 23 and already working for your money.
B-A-L-A-N-C-E. Big word. (sorry John Lloyd, it's not TRUST, dumb-o)
How do you create a balance between trying to be responsible and trying to keep your happiness? How do you keep sane when you talk to insane people all the time? How do you reoconcile things which are always competing from each other, in order to make it to you "top priority" slot?
How do you keep on being a normal, regular, decent person?
How do you veer away from making mistakes??
If I stop trying to make things right, then, I would not be susceptible to committing mistakes, because there's no "correct thing" anyway.
Maybe Keri Smith was right afterall. Here on, I vow:
1. Not to try to create something beautiful
2. Not to think too much
3. To Continue under all circumstances
and best of all...
4. try not to reach for the top, but rather, keep things in balance.
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