Today, I asked something that I had been asking over and over again for the rest of the year...
"How many times do I have to walk away from my heart?"
And as I frantically search for an alternative, the truth glares in desperation. As I pile up on things which are supposed to please me, none of it can even cause a bit of spark. Because deep down I know, I lost the very sole thing that feels...and worse, I cannot retrieve my heart from where I left it off. No matter how unfair it is for myself, I know I shouldn't.
It is never easy...the thing that we do, whenever we have to chose between what is righteous versus what feels right. I reckon that the most difficult discrepancy in life lies between what the mind says and what the heart feels. To reconcile these things, it takes centuries of wisdom and maturity...and all the more, faith and courage.
Maybe, it is not yet the time for me to know the answers..Maybe it takes a little while of walking without a heart in order to recognize your thoughts, and it takes walking with only your heart in order to fully understand what comprehension fails to reach. Who knows...
All these questions, I reconcile spiritually through a humble prayer.
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